He makes the road rise

I think I believe, sometimes, that it's my job to crash. If there is a God who is eternally good, then the only way bad can exist in my life is through me. Think about that for a second, because that'll take you where I go.

Good needs evil. If there is nothing corrupt, then what is pure? Everyone agrees, and has been agreeing, on this. Does God need us, though? I mean, that's a good question, right?

If he's all-powerful, then no. Why would he need us?
But he still made us, so we do have some sort of needful purpose.

Fascinating. After all this time, I still don't understand. And it's good. It's difficult for me to surrender my intellect because I am my father's son. This type of submission sets me and others apart, because we're not meant to understand-- not out of pity or condescension, just practicality. I'm a vapor in the wind, and that makes me wonder why I'm trying to understand the breeze that pushes me through the air.

Skeptics say that makes it easier to deal with stupidity.
I say this is the only way you can possibly live without waiting to die.

Now, a few years down this road, I'll look back on what I said in the monumental, profound statement and smile at the fact of how naive I am. The fact that I'm not perfect pushes the road down, and it becomes difficult to see the sun sometimes.

But it doesn't stay there,
but I know I don't stay there,
but I know he's with me,
but I know he's in me,
but I know he will always be good--

but I know he makes the road rise.

What to do, what to do

It's been a long time since I've actually written about what's going on in my life. It's funny, because every time I think I need to blog, I always think that I have nothing to write about. I have a lot to write about.

First of all, I'm both excited and disappointed about next year. I'm disappointed, well, for obvious reasons. In May, the vast majority of my friends will be graduating, and I will be in the audience. I didn't think it would be quite this depressing, but it truly is. But, getting past that, I will be a peer advisor for a third year (HOORAY!), and taking classes that I never thought I would be able to take. And I'll be living in the White House. That is also quite bumpin'.

Secondly, I'm gonna take a trip to Kentucky. Tentative date is May 28th. U of Louisville. Tell your friends. But don't tell them I'm a State fan-- they're probably going to be bitter for a while.

Finally, if anyone knows what I can still do for a job this summer, I'd appreciate a job. I'm working at the HHC, but that's a part-time gig. I need something to do for the rest of the summer. Hmph.

Well, I guess that was it. By the way, props to my PA crew for winning most spirited team at Relay. It was the whistles for sure. =)

Punch it

For who is greater: he who speaks, or he who listens?

I will not "apply" the Scriptures to my life.

I will apply myself to the Scriptures.

(so, do it.)